Comfort Zone.

I stand at the terrifying precipice of opportunity, scared both of jumping into the unknown and waiting on the cliff. But if I’m scared either way, I’d rather be scared in the direction of something more than what waiting will give me.

So I’m jumping. Wings, net, or splatter; I’m jumping. Because I’d rather break what I have than stay trapped inside my own inaction.

New Year! (New Me?)

This is awkward, writing after so long. In fact, everyone tells me that I should be posting on here more, and I agree. But I’m going to write what I want to write.

So let’s do this.

The year is over! Good times and good riddance! I co-wrote a feature film this year, wrote my first script by myself (check that out at http://www.funnyordie.com/videos/ca4b995bd9/episode-6-christmas-special?playlist=348333 ), and of course I have acted in a few projects…well, 8. I’ve been in 8 projects this year and joined SAG-AFTRA.

Holy crap! That’s so many things for one year! Right?!

Actually… no, I could have done a lot more, a LOT more with my year. Just one example: it took me 11 months to co-write that feature. And I say ‘me’ because it was definitely my fault that it is so far behind the original schedule.

I’ve let myself down. I really have, and it’s assisted me in letting others down. There’s no inspirational saying about “but not anymore”, because that doesn’t change the past.

Can’t dwell on that though. This is a new year just 2 hours anyway! I mean, dwelling on something automatically takes you out of what’s happening right now. Acting class teaches you things like that about acting, but for some reason I never attributed it to life. Because that’s too obvious.

So what is 2015?

2015 is the year of…active caring.

I sit around and say I care about a lot of things, and I honestly care about almost all of them. But I don’t show it with my actions. That has to change. I get the privilege of changing that about myself.

It’s not inspirational quotes or stories that inspire me. It’s myself and necessity. It’s necessary for me to work on myself and share that more full self with the ones I care about. And that takes action.

Now is the time to act!!

…literally.

-Brad

Just a Quick One!

Hey guys!

It’s rather late, but I haven’t posted in a while and I really wanted to throw this one out there:

If you’d like more day-to-day updates, it’s best to follow me on Twitter or Instagram (@mrbradleyp).
The format just allows for me to post quick updates in my life without having to sit down for half an hour and write a full blog post.

Make no mistake, I’ll still be posting here! But if you’d like to hear more from me, it’s okay to get social! :)

Catch you in the morning!
-Brad

The End of Childhood.

It’s a scary thought, but things are going to change.

Things are changing every day, from the position of the Earth’s tectonic plates, to the rise and fall of the tides, to the way in which each one of us has to view the world. And really, I’ve been running from that. Psychologically speaking, the mind likes an equilibrium, a state of non-change, of peace. The thing is, that isn’t going to happen unless you’re complacent and happy with being led through life instead of leading your life.

So how do we keep changing?

We recognize that it’s necessary.

Puberty is a rough time for everyone, growing taller and wider, starting to discover yourself sexually. It’s so rough and awkward that even talking about it I feel like a creep. Yeesh. But really, we all get through it. Think of the “college years” as a second puberty, the time at which we start to grow into adults mentally and emotionally. It’s even harder to deal with this time, isn’t it? Now we’ve got so many new things coming at us, and we need to adapt more quickly. We need to support ourselves financially, we need to get ourselves up for that job we don’t want because it leads to the job we do want. We have to exercise, eat right, save money, find a future spouse if we want a family someday (it’s not like there’s endless time on that issue). And all of those things can be terrifying sometimes. They scare the Hell out of me sometimes!

…But you know… I kind of like having some of those things that I have. I have a really great girl in my life, and the future with a family doesn’t scare me anymore. The future scares me, but the parts with a wife and my family don’t. It’s not a feeling of being smitten, it’s just the truth: I am not scared of the parts in my life that will involve my plans for a family someday. I’ve realized that that thought isn’t one that scares me.

And exercise? Eating right? Those are things I can start right now, things I have already half-heartedly begun. It’s crazy to say that I’m scared to do those things now, because I know I can do them now. I’m already doing them! I know that I can manage that responsibility on my own right now.

Hell, I’m even getting up at 6:30 half the time now. That’s halfway there, halfway to my goal of waking up at a decent hour each day. There’s no need to fear the responsibility of that, or fear failing that goal. I’ve already accomplished it on quite a few days, enough that I can see a pattern of when and why I fail to wake up at that decent hour.

So what really even has a right to bother me right now? Sure, I can say that my finances aren’t in order. And I don’t have a job right now, just a long-term career path in a job that won’t pay off anytime soon (aka acting…try to keep up :) ). Now those two really are scary to look at for me, but it’s only two of six major things that used to scare me. More than half my work’s begun, and I can certainly do the rest. It’s going to hurt a lot taking those first couple of steps, but the pain will subside when I keep going towards it all.

Things are going to change. But they only change the way I want if I take the first steps.

-Brad

On the Set of “Rusty Fish”!

Hey guys! What’s happening? :)

I’m now starring in a short film called Rusty Fish! This project in particular is really exciting to me because I’m working with an amazing cast and crew, some of whom I even recognize from projects I’ve enjoyed watching! Livvy Stubenrauch is playing my little sister, and she was the voice of Little Anna in Frozen, Jin Namkung is playing my best friend, and he was in the most recent season of Arrested Development, and the Director of Photography is Brandon Mastrippolito whose credits include Modern Family, Veronica Mars, and Spider-Man! Needless to say, I’m excited to be a part of such a great team!

So far we’ve finished two days of filming, and it looks beautiful. I can’t wait to see how it all turns out!

To find out more about the film, you can check it out on Facebook!

I’ll talk to you all soon!

-Brad

Behind the Scenes!

In November, I spent my first time as a PA on set. For those who don’t know what that position is, he’s basically coffee-and-odd-errands boy. Any set can technically get by without a PA, but having one or more can make things move faster and more smoothly.

I ran out to get actors’ coffee. I played the lead’s hands in a few close-ups. I ran all the way to Staples, then OfficeMax, then a random print shop just to find the right kind of printer cartridge. I ran food and coffee upstairs to the crew every five minutes for ten hours. I carried metal chairs and tables, c-stands, sandbags, extension cords, and other pieces of heavy equipment from a truck two blocks away until it was empty, then I filled it again at the end of each night. I had no idea what I was doing, and yet I did just about everything I was qualified to do on that set, except act in the film itself.

So why would an actor seek out a position behind the camera?

You need to learn to respect every position on set. Every position. That, and now a producer out there knows how reliable and hardworking I am, which is a great thing to know about an actor when you cast them. Who knows, maybe she’ll cast me in an Oscar-winning role someday. Or maybe she’ll never give me an opportunity to act in a project. Either way, I’m still proud of how far I went to make sure the little things got done before they even crossed her mind. I can’t thank her enough, and I’d happily PA again for her anytime, whether it ever leads to acting or not.

It’s good to feel proud of yourself for something else once in a while. :)

-Brad

2014.

Last year, right around October, a lot of new things started happening for me. A perspective that I had been keeping for a long time started to crack and crumble, I learned new marketing methods for how to get in touch with people I want to work with, and on top of that, I started receiving payment for my acting occasionally. These changes have all come at once, and a lot of this past month has been spent trying to adjust to them.

For instance, I recently got my letter confirming my SAG Eligibility. Which is great news! It is!

But with it, there can be so many more questions and decisions! When do I join, what do I do until then, what do I do afterwards, do I need representation first, does this SAG card make my butt look big? It’s comically overwhelming most of the time, and although I’ve made most of those decisions and answered most of those questions, everyone still has an opinion on the matter. It’s not easy to stick to what feels right for you when everyone else has so much to say on the subject. But, for the meantime, I’m maintaining my “eligible” status until it becomes a hinderance.

Right now things are a bit hectic too. Specifically because, well, I’m in a hotel room in Salt Lake City. I’m on my way to Grand Junction, Colorado for the premiere of One Step Behind, the short film that helped me earn my eligibility back in October! I’ve never been to a festival before, and I’m not sure what to expect right now. I’m more curious than nervous, so it’s going to be fun! :)

Things have been changing though, that’s for sure. 21 is a good age for figuring out who you are, but all I know for certain is that I’m not the same. And I can’t go back, not happily.

It’s time to head out, so I kind of want to end on a quote that’s very dear to me, one that I get reminded of each year at this time.

“If you can’t fly then run, if you can’t run then walk, if you can’t walk then crawl, but whatever you do you have to keep moving forward.”

-Brad

Not always talking.

Hey everyone.

Tonight I’m feeling serious. Carefree, but seriously so. The truth is, I know that this is mostly where I can just let myself out into the world, share my words and my thoughts.

The issue I’m having with this blog right now is simple: it’s just advertising.

The projects I get to work on excite me, but sometimes it’s hard to just talk about them on here. If I’m honest, I don’t know who reads this blog. I don’t have too many hits, which isn’t too discouraging as long as what I write is true. Ernest Hemingway used to say that there were never any good or poor writings, only writing that was true and came only from truth. Now I’ve never read Hemingway, but I think he really has something there. And even though the projects I’m a part of are real, and I think they’ve all been good thus far, they aren’t truly what I want to use this blog for.

This blog is for me; for my mind, and for my ability to share myself with you. To share things you may find interesting to know about me, maybe even things you find interesting in general. At least one person who reads this may think differently about writing because of one or two sentences about Hemingway in the previous paragraph.

And that’s kind of what I want right now.

Don’t worry though, there are still updates to be had, events to be shared and things to look forward to seeing and listening to. I am starting a vlog, that wasn’t a lie. A lot has been happening though, and some projects need to be put on hold while bigger ones come to light. Not better ones, just bigger. Anything I want to share with you should come from a pure interest in entertaining you and sharing who I am, so that any one of you can have a personal connection to me in some way.

In that light, I’ve made steps to make acting a career of mine, instead of keeping it in a stage that most would just call an intense hobby.

I’m now SAG-Eligible.
What does that mean? Well, SAG-AFTRA is a union for film and television actors, one that any movie you’ve probably ever seen at a theatre has dealt with. Being a part of it means that I’m more likely to be taken seriously in audition rooms, on casting calls, any time that someone looks at my resumé. This shows that I’m pursuing acting as a career now; people don’t just have to take my word for it. This was my biggest goal of this year, and I cannot believe that it came true. I really can’t. :)

I was in two short films.
One was the short film that made me SAG-Eligible, and it’s going to the Grand Junction Film Festival. Since this is my first production to be sent to a festival, I’m very excited to see where this goes. I would never have gotten this chance without a new friend of mine. A really good friend. If you’re reading this, thank you. :)
The second, which was done for an old friend, is the first romantic comedy I’ve done in a while. And I’ve got to tell you, I’ve missed them. I love the sweet stories. :) And this film was also cool, because it was shot entirely on a CBS Studios soundstage. It’s an experience I can’t wait to have again.

Dead Cat Café is finished airing for now.
If you’ve been watching, I was in a web series called Dead Cat Café in which I play a serial killer with a bunch of really…unique…serial killer friends. It’s equal parts Tarantino and Eli Roth, so I’d check it out if I were you. It was a blast to make. I’ve included a link to Season One’s playlist below. Will there be a Season Two? No news yet, just speculation. But I think there’s a good chance of one next year, and I’ll probably be involved. :)



I have a web radio show starting up soon!
Yes, you read that correctly; I have a web radio show now. It’s not started yet, and there are no determined starting dates as of yet. Most likely within the next two weeks you’ll be hearing me live on the air, with a 2 hour long show at 8am to 10am Pacific Time on Wednesdays to start. Why to start? Well, I’m making the show myself, only broadcasting through a service similar to iHeart Radio called LiveSircuit Radio. The show is mine, every word and every song choice, every request is made to me directly and every guest is invited by me personally. Although this is amazing, I don’t have a good way to judge how much air time I’ll need, or what time I should swap to if I should pick another. The first month or so of shows will definitely be two hours long at 8am to 10am, but that may change in the future. I’ll let you all know the details of how to listen and call in once my show starts airing. Remember, keep your Wednesday mornings free.

Now that I have typed out all of those projects, I feel like they were worth sharing, for my sake. I don’t think anyone will mind, as long as I like what I’m saying.

For now, this song fits my mood.
It’s 1:59 AM, Sunday November 3rd.
Thanks for taking the time to read.

Enjoy your day.
-Brad



Dead Cats and Couch Chats!

Hello people! It really has been too long. :)

There really never is a good reason for my not posting on here, so I will more often. The posts may be shorter though; just whatever I was thinking about at the end of a day and if there’s any news.

Speaking of news:
Dead Cat Café is FINALLY out! That’s right, soon to be the most beloved group of serial killers can now make their way through your screen and right into your living room! There isn’t too much of me in this first episode, but you’ll see a good amount of leg and get to know our characters better. So go on, watch away. :)


Now, what does “Couch Chats” mean exactly? Well, I’ve been working in my free time to start figuring out ideas for regular video blogs and projects for you guys. I want to share more than just some typed words every few weeks; I want to be able to actually talk with you guys when I can! So keep an eye on my YouTube channel, you’re going to be seeing some new content soon.

https://www.youtube.com/user/mrbradpainter

All right everyone, that’s a wrap! :D

-Brad